The Animator - I'm sorry.

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I'm sorry.

10mo ago

Hello. I wanted to tell you something from the bottom of my heart.

I do not know what I was thinking when I created the whole “WHERE IS EVERYBODY???” thing. Yep. It was me. All me. Just me.

You see, I used to have an account a long time ago: kittysaurus3. And if you go to @kittysaurus3’s profile page, well, yes. You get it.

I do not care if you hate me for this. It is all my fault. I am a stupid liar that makes stupid lies for no stupid, stupid reason.

Look, I am sorry. I am sorry that I found this website. I am sorry that I made accounts. I am sorry that made art. I am sorry that I posted. I am sorry that made friends here. I am sorry that I can lie. I am sorry that I can create multiple accounts. I am sorry that I can make up endless lies. I am sorry that I even exist in this universe. In this galaxy. On this planet. Breathing air.

I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry.

But that is not the point. The point is that I LIED to you. And I promised a long, long, time ago, that I would never lie to you ever again. Ever. And I have hated myself for being myself. I realized what I do and how it affects you and everyone else. I really, really mean all of this. I am so, so, so, very sorry.

And do you know what else? I do not only lie to you. I lie to everybody. Friends. Family. Siblings. Cousins. Aunts. Uncles. Grandparents.

But that is not all. Let us talk about accounts. I have three. Two of which are @kittysaurus3 and @Cinnabunn-the-AI. Yep. Cinnabunn. She is not an AI. It is me. I bet you are not surprised.

I have EVEN MORE to say. I am exposing myself because I cannot take this anymore. All this pain and anger and all kinds of emotions pile up inside of me and it is like a boulder in my heart. I cannot breathe. My stomach starts hurting. My head throbs. My limbs tingle...

I just cannot. All these pile up on my shoulders and it’s a burden to keep it to myself. The thoughts.

“Oh, what if they find out?”

“They’re going to kill me,”

“They’re going to find out!”

I want t

sussy1234

10mo ago

to let it all go and release all the weight. The tears. The thoughts. The countless lies I have told and the secrets I have kept.

And I keep making lies. Because I am ME. And there is nothing I can do about it. It is the personality God gave me and the one I will have forever.

Imagine a house. A house with a mouse infestation. Now imagine the mice being my lies. The mice will keep coming and coming to feed on more of my happiness over time.

. . .

The house would be full of mice before it is even built.

What I am trying to say is that I am not happy with the things I do. So, I keep trying repeatedly to make it better. But it all collapses into big, fat lies that stick to my brain for countless days. Do you get it?

I am sorry I ever did this to you. That I came here and found you. That I made friends with strangers online. I am sorry for everything I have done wrong.

Please, forgive me. I will do anything to make it up for you.

If not, that is okay. I can leave this site forever and ever. You will not have to suffer. Ever again.

In conclusion, I wanted to say that this apology if from the bottom of my heart. No bots. No other people. It is all me. Just like the thread.

What can I do to make it up to you?

I am deeply sorry.

From Sussy ♥

averagekid

10mo ago

i knew Cinnabunn was never an ai, any "ais" on here can't even interact with The Animator's api since it's not even meant for online users to tamper with.

sorry if i sound like a nerd btw

sussy1234

10mo ago

@averagekid

I know, and I'm sorry about the fact that I lied so much. I don't know what I was thinking back then, but it's definitely not okay. I'm sorry for any actions that I have done that could have hurt you in any way.

averagekid

10mo ago

@sussy1234

Nah, I'd lose.

PoisonIvy2012

10mo ago

its ok? tbh i didnt even care that you lied

so_cool_man

10mo ago

@sussy1234

when you catch a mouse what do you feel hate? accomplishment? do you regret it and have sorrow as you look in its eyes? as mouse infest but when caught you realize it's nothing but a creature like you a thing with life. a thing with purpose and origin. for regret turns to an instinct of good as to think why as, the mouse means no harm but means to live.

a lie is just there it can hurt protect and make both the liar and lied to feel, regret, anger and sadness. lies may serve purpose or none yet exist as to fulfill or to feel.

so_cool_man

10mo ago

in a way you did nothing to hurt us as it's like alter egos personas etc to pretend role play and more.

Anyways ima finish workin on a section lils oc im drawing for today and call quits

so_cool_man

10mo ago

holthy ghats no wonder my cousin asked me to be her therapist.

sussy1234

10mo ago

@so_cool_man said:

when you catch a mouse what do you feel hate? accomplishment? do you regret it and have sorrow as you look in its eyes? as mouse infest but when caught you realize it's nothing but a creature like you a thing with life. a thing with purpose and origin. for regret turns to an instinct of good as to think why as, the mouse means no harm but means to live.

a lie is just there it can hurt protect and make both the liar and lied to feel, regret, anger and sadness. lies may serve purpose or none yet exist as to fulfill or to feel. in a way you did nothing to hurt us as it's like alter egos personas etc to pretend role play and more.

Catching a mouse, I'd feel hatred and sorrow towards myself. I'd regret doing anything related to that lie and I would try to hide it from others. I try to make others forget about the lies I have told and the secrets that I've told. Every day I think about my lies and how much they can hurt neighbors. I say to myself, "I need no longer to lie."

But I still lie. I lie everyday to everybody. It's just the way I am. Sometimes after I lie I go to my room and try to release all the tension building up inside my body. But sometimes it doesn't work. But that's okay. I'm good at keeping secrets to myself.

Edited by @sussy1234