The Animator

You ever just think, "if I keep this up, I'm never going to get anywhere. There's not going to be a miracle, a magic moneymaking scheme, a kind person that comes along and helps me. No one's ever going to do that. In all my life, I've never seen one person who admits they are wrong and another is right, one who genuinely wants others to succeed over themselves, someone in the flesh who wants more than just making it themselves, who wants others to make it too. I'm screwed and no one cares."

I have no doubt I'll regret oversharing later and overthink it greatly, but there's not a whole lot I have to lose on this site, and I'll hit the 'create thread' button before I have second thoughts.

i know this isn't very helpful at all, as im starting to give up on just trying to pour my heart out to help people. i don't feel like i'll help someone who's probably older than me and i can't solve every issue.

but yeah

i usually try to see things in a more positive light

if i don't run into some magical miracle, then i'll finally do something myself. i'll find a way to cope if i feel like i can't make it. if no one will do what is best for the world, i'll do it myself (as in i'll help make things better, not something like i'll save the word single handedly)

i won't deny the fact that i need help, but it's something that i admit that i need to improve on. i don't like asking for help a lot (which explains why my "advice" might not be helpful, i don't say much about getting help because i know that there's limits and i don't want to hurt anyone by telling them to go to a counselor or something and being rejected. whatever works for you, i guess)

i feel like some day you'll find the right person to help you, and i guess that person might be you

anyways, i hope that you heal from whatever is going on in your life, and that you find happiness where ever you go.