The Animator

this is weird, all of this is just weird, not only have i broken myself apart but i am just torn. normally, i convey my emotions by words or reacts, and it works, sometimes. im concerned about who i am towards other people. i mean whats the first thought that pops up when you think of me. i dont do these things for shame, and popularity, because im sure im unpopular. love twisted me, and it intercepted with fate. to be honest, i used to think as fox as my mother, caretaker for a while. then it evollved to a satisfactory freind. i was even tempted to call fox master at one point bc my love and compression went haywire, and i couldnt control. i want to be like fox, i want to be her. i want to chase the cosmos i want to belive. i want ash to be my mentor, i want her to use me. i want shark to be my mum (litteraly) i want to feel that, bc i never had a loving mom, i never had a mom who gave me these things. i never had a mom who belived me. i had to go through this alone, bullyed, i even got beat by my dad, whom i thought i could trust. my path was empty. ive lost myself in emotions, i feel as if im a robot, conttroled throught commands. you dont know what ive been through, the blood shed i had to witness, th epeople that ive killed. i had to murder my own freind because i caught him trying to steal things from a poor old grandma, threatening her with a gun. these though s are deep, controlled with the sharpness of my tone. so much violence that is being cause. STOP WHINING AND MOANING ABOUT STUPID CRAP LIKE BEING A PERV AND STUFF, STOP BEING A COWARD, HIDING BEHIND OTHERS BC YOU KNOW IM VALID, STP USING OTHERS TO DO YOUR DIRTY CRAP JUST BECAUSE YOU DONT WANT TO DO IT YOURSELF, STOP EXPLOITING PEOPLE BC YOU CANT DEFEND YOUR POINT. THE THINGS YOU DO AR LIKE DAGGERS TO MY SOUL, THE MAKE A POINT. and trust me, it hurts

why? Sure you killed someone because they did the wrong this. But dude. You did something worse before he did it. Now you both have to face consequences. Yeah he deserved it. But now you deserve something bad because you did something bad.

no ive had to stab my freind bc he was threatening a old lady with a gun

also bc he almost shot me, i-i had to protect

try and choose your friends more carefully. we dont want you becoming that person.

These people always doing this stuff. whats wrong with them?

ik

Hold on imma make a thread to do something. no one go on it. I cant scream irl cause there are people im my house. so imma type it out.

ddddddddeeeep

well. i'll always be here for you... even if you don't want me there, I'll be there. I'll always try to help.. even though I may not do a good job...

well i didnt kill him at the spot, i stabbed him in the small of his back then called the ambulance. he died two days later

okay im back

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what?

Shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit...........

im just sad a lil

i let out so much

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*dies of saddness*

:/