The Animator

haha this is gonna be weird but I'm just gonna empty everything out alr?ok then here it goes

My life seems like a wonder to all the out siders but once they see me I'm kinda like a spider...i fake my smiles and laugh at things that don't even make sense..i feel like If i fake it and that i acked happy that it might make me happy..the guy i like likes my cousin....I've told this guy how i felt a year ago...but then i told him i didn't like him anymore cause i felt like i can just let it pass..i thought i would forget him but yet i haven't....my life at home ..i feel useless ...the things i get called by my stepmomare,useless,dumb,stupid,possessed by the devil...my mother is doing drugs and I've told her to stop..she doesn't have custody over me at all but she pleads me to come back..takes my dad to court..and once i tell her to stop she thinks its my dads fault and takes things to court and calls the police..the thing is i don't want to be this deppressed kid...i seek to try and destroy this but I've failed twice alr....all the people who thought who were true ended up fading away..i kept them close..but sometimes the closest people stab you in the back....yeah the pain hurts but that's not me....i will enjoy the blood that leaks down my spine ...i will feel the pain...i will get through it....cause you know what that knife was only a butter knife..it hasn't reached my heart..and I'm not gonna wait for it to become a katana and end my life....i mess so many things up while trying to do the right thing...but you know what one mistake...even if you did everything else right..people will laugh at you....even if its only one.....the expect better than your best but you know what......those people who say that you need to be better than your limit....they are below their limit....i swear and everything i will move on..its gonna hurt a ton....but who cares...ur weight will be ur pride....don't let anyone tells you other wise..i love all of you....i really do......thank you

er sorry..its kinda dramaish....but letting strangers know seems easier than letting anything close know...

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i dont expect any of u guys to understand..i just needed to share

it won't let me cause chrome os won't open the page

i like how no body payed attention to this

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